I feel like I am nothing compare to what I see in everything. I just thought how did I end up being what I am, why didn’t I stop or even think of who I am to become. Why can’t I do something about it. Maybe I’m just to tired and scared of getting hurt that I no longer wanna feel it. That I chose happiness in a fantasy rather than pain in a reality.
People see me that I’m happy, that I live in a perfect life, that I am strong and got nothing to worry. Why can’t I be that person, why can’t it be me. In fact, I am terrified and I felt alone and sometimes I lost hope. For everytime I put myself up there’s something in me that keeps pushing me down.
You can never really walk away from a shadow. Everytime you see a light in you, your shadow keeps following you and when you look back it’s just there reminding you of who you are. Can I be that strong to never look back and to live a life without a past. To think that I am really something and that I can be big in my own thing.
Sometimes I think of myself as an ant, a tiny little ant that can be easily stepped upon. At first it is just about being small that sometimes people don’t noticed you at all. But do we see how they’ve given so much, do we even know how important they are. Never lose hope I guess, for when I feel down I always think that if an ant was created for a purpose then I am here for a reason.
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